Thursday, 30 August 2012

Fecking FEC

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I saw the Chemo Guy today and my ultrasound shows no shrinkage (which we had kind of sussed) and that my tumour isn't responding to the FEC part of my chemotherapy...which is a real bummer. So, he's cancelled tomorrow's FEC chemo session and instead has me starting Herceptin and Docetaxol chemo next week.

Not  a very happy bunny today

Friday, 17 August 2012

Birthday on hold

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Jeez...chemo number two has totally floored me.
It's been 9 days and I still can't do anything; spending most of my time horizontal again and feeling total rubbish.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm going to have to admit defeat. I'm in the second week of my chemo cycle when all my blood counts are at their lowest so socialising is a big no as the risk of infection is too great. To be honest, I can't stand up for long enough to be very sociable anyway.

Packages have arrived and I am saving them for my birthday.
Mr T will help me open them and I shall thank you all.

Since I began camming I've been looking forward to my birthday and had planned to share it with you guys so we could have fun and I could say thank you for your support. I'm going to have to put it on hold. I'm sure we won't have to wait till next year (dear Lord, I hope not!) and there'll be a day when I can wiggle and dance and tease and be naughty


Saturday, 11 August 2012

Chemo Number 2 and the Hose Attachment ;o)

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Chemo number 2 on Thursday was ok in as much as having chemo can be ok. Thursday evening and night I felt uber sick and Friday I was shattered but today, I feel good again…I get tired easily but I know that will pass.

My hair is doing its best to drop out. This morning it was a ceaseless task trying to rinse it off my shoulders in the shower and I’d left it too late for Mr T to shave it before he had to leave for work for a few hours.  As I was trying to do my make-up I got so angry with it falling on my face that I had a bright idea! The vacuum cleaner was still upstairs so I put the brush attachment on the hose and gave my head the once, twice, thrice over. It worked and felt quite nice.
Mr T will shave it all off for me later today.

And answer me this, people. My under arms and lady bits are nicely bald but why the f*ck aren’t my legs?


Monday, 6 August 2012

On my back ;o)

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Lord...I need to update so here we go!

That first chemotherapy session slapped me across the face on day 8. Luckily I happened to be at my local surgery for a blood test at the time and with the help of a nurse and a wheel chair the blood test was accomplished and Mr T was summoned. I spent the next 63 hours in a horizontal position unable to raise my head without everything spinning, unable to sleep but, strangely, able to eat...with a vengeance. I have gained 4lbs and I have a tummy! It's quite cute :o)

By Day 11 I was out of bed and beginning to function again.

Over the last couple of weeks I have received nearly 100 bars of Green & Black's chocolate so thank you Piggy, thank you Gravel and thank you Messrs Green & Black.

I had another blood test this morning and on Thursday I have my second chemo session so by my reckoning I will be slapped across the face and staring at the spinning ceiling again on my birthday...bummer!!

Of course, if you were to click on one of the hearts below, peruse my wishlist and send me a gift then my birthday would be more bearable. Or if you prefer, you could click on the pink ribbon and make a donation to Cancer Research Or Macmillan Cancer Care.

Thank you xx